*Coming in after a Minute or two and Seeing him laying there on the Couch. Going to quietly sit beside him. Feeling a bit of relief he hadn't disappeared somewhere she couldn't find him.*
4:14 PM
*Softly Running her fingers through his hair* My baby boy... I'm so sorry you're having to go through so much... *She said in a soft Whisper.*
Hua.... *Pulls her aside* I need to warn you.... *Whispers* Yuray is coming.... To talk to him.... I'd tell Nio, but.... I don't know it might be better if you did.....
Hm... Nio *She said. Turning to him and kneeling back down to his level and caressing his cheek* Twyla says Yuray will be coming over soon to speak to you.. would you like to take a shower so you're a little more sober and aware dear?
I won’t deny it: I was faking. I was pretending to be someone softer than I am because I liked the way I looked standing next to you. You were the unique life of the party everyone fawned over.... and having you on my arm felt like winning a trophy..... I used you for the status, and I used you for the vanity of it all.... I was a bully who put on a mask, and I am so sorry that you were the one who had to suffer when that mask finally cracked....
When the consequences became real—when I got pregnant—I panicked. Everyone was right, I wasn't ready, but I was too proud to be honest. It was easier to play the victim to the Council than to admit I had no idea how to love anything that wasn't myself.....
About the children, I know how it looks. I know it looks like I only want them back because Aaravos took them away—because the "nobodies" are raising what was supposed to be mine. And maybe there’s a part of me that is still that selfish, status-obsessed girl. But for the first time in my life, the silence where they should be is louder than the praise of the crowd....
I used you. There is no excuse for it. I failed them. I let my pride get in the way of their lives. I regret the theatrics. I turned our lives into a performance, and I am the only one who deserves to be hissed off the stage.....
I'm sorry.... I just want to put this behind us....
And what? Pretend it no happen, watch dem grow up wit you just off da side? Let dem be dere when dey born, be da first to hold my child? Or I just pretend dey not mine? Maybe I do be part of deir lives yea? But how ya explain dat I no get to be da full dad because dey are? Dat deir real parents decide ta let dem raise ya instead? How do we move past dis huh? Feign blissful ignorance yea? Or tell dem da truth and ruin what good life dey'd have if dey never knew us? You tell me yea? You stand dere and you tell me how we "move on" from dis. You go ahead now I listen.
*Getting up* Nio.. Calm down. And you.. You've said enough. You don't deserve to be Part of Our Family OR Theirs. And i don't want you coming anywhere near us again. Do you Understand? *Putting her foot down before things can get worse* You should leave... Now..
5:37 PM
And this is me Telling you Nicely... So i'd take your chance..
*Watching and Listening to Nio. And Stepping back. But Crossing her arms and watching Yuray closely* Alright. You heard him... Speak while you have a tongue..
*Holding Twyla's hand and caressing it with her thumb softly. Keeping both She and herself Calm for now. She hasn't snapped yet. She put her foot down Sternly but not with As much hostility as she can. But for now this is for Yuray and Nio to Discuss*
Let what go..... yuray? what part? Can't be all of it, cause dey can't be both not our kids, but also, not exist in da first place, so again.... yuray... let what go? I still not have any more answers dan I did before ya got here.
I...You... You're not listening.... I'm not saying pretend nothing happened.... I'm saying we just..... Leave it be.... What was done.... Is done.... And we can't go back.....
I know we no can go back. but how ya go forward? I ask ya. And you tell me da answer is "let it go" let what go? I say pretend it not happen, you say no not it, Den tell ma plain. *he steps closer, towering over her* How do I let dem go! How do I let you go. And how do I let go of everyting dat been done to me since da night you decided my heart be collateral damage!
*Not hearing any protests through the Silent Tension. She steps between them and speaks calmly* I.. As a Mother.. And someone who has lived with much guilt. and made many mistakes in my Life. Think it best to Tell the Children the truth from the start.... I've.. *Looking into Nio's Eyes* I've seen what keeping secrets can do to a Family... I think it best not to keep any from them.. Tell them the truth of what happened. And how they came to be where they are... And then.. Let them Decide who they Wish to Stay in their lives...
6:56 PM
I think If that be the Case. We tell the Council the day they are to make their Decision. so they know.
I just... Acknowledged my actions and it's consequences and.... Realized that all I can do is try to repair what I can..... And live with the rest.....
*Takes a deep breath so she doesn't yell and get her ass whooped* Yes. Because You're Right. I Am Selfish enough to do that. But YOU Don't have to be, Nio. You do what you want to do. I just want to Move on. Maybe I'll be a better person in the Future. Maybe the kids will want to get to know the me then. But right now... I.. I can only worry about myself. Because i know i'm not being worried about by anyone else. and i don't deserve to be. You're not Me Nio. And i wouldn't ever want you to be me..
Ya see dat where you wrong, course I care, I da only one who do care, dey don care, i don even tink you care bout you, but I do, and dat why what ya did burns so hot, I cared, and ya used it, and now we in dis mess and you still not care, and **I STILL DO!!**
She's telling you what you want to hear... She knows it's okay to Care... But She doesn't want to for her own Sake.. *Turning back to Yuray* Don't you.(edited)
If I pretend not to care, then it stings less. Then whatever happens won't hurt. Of course I care. It's my kids. And I hurt you. But not only was I not ready, I didn''t think it through, either. You said we could share a night, but when I took it at the wedding, I.... I forgot it's significance .... I'm sorry about what happened, and I wish it were different, but if I don't close off the fact I care for them, care for you..... I will just cause myself more pain because there's nothing to be done.... I can't have you...I can't have them....and I sure as hell can't have Onyx.(edited)
You could have, if ya tink of others other dan yourself, you could have... I would have given it to ya, Or maybe Onyx if ya fancy, hell anyone would if ya just cared about others as much as yaself. Do you even really care bout me now? or dem just words cause da council said ya had ta make friends? What your heart really say, or you just looking for a way out like a fish in da net.
I care about all of you.... And the council said nothing to me. They didnt make me do anything.... Every aspect of me screams deep care for you, the children, and Onyx. Even if I didn't want them, they exist now....And I never meant to hurt anyone....
You come into our house, We tell you to go. Not once. Not Twice. But Three times. Yet you continue to speak as if the Sea itself has granted you Immortality... We'll not listen to someone who can't even show enough respect to leave when told.
8:37 PM
You got a pass once... This time we're not going to be so easy.. If you do not heed our final warning to go we will have to make you leave.
I should be going... I Told your father i wouldn't be long.. And you seem to have stuff of your own to do yea? *Kissing his forehead* I love you. I'll see you later okay? *Hurrying out to go see if Araavos is where he was before*
*coming in* Mom, Twy... Fotia and I have.... *looks over at her* Can someone help her make tea? Anyway, we got someting to tell ya... *still looking at her* You wanna tell em?
rests her forehead against his* And I hope you do too. Don't let what happened with one Take away what you already got with the ones who really love you
You'll make a wonderful father.. I know you will. I Mean you had Hala to be like one for you. And now ya got your real dad here. I say you have a pretty great support group yea?
*gasps* My Parents! Oh, they'd be over the moon! I should send a letter! And maybe one to Mal and Char. They said they wanted to visit for a couple days anyway. Oh! That reminds me. The healer said she was alerting the council to throw a celebration. I mean, I get it, it's not everyday a Phoenix gets pregnant, but eh...yknow....
I should start writing! *humming as she heads to her room. renovations are well underway from the builders, but no furnishings yet. so she's just writing in an empty room*(edited)
Nonsense. He's been gone for a good while. I don't think it would hurt for him to take his first love and the first mother of his Children out on a nice date or at least a walk on da beach yea? I know how badly ya missed him...
2:12 AM
You spoke to me about it rather frequently *She teases a bit*
We all did sweetheart. But i know how much more It meant to you. That said. I think His father and i may go out and Enjoy ourselves too.. *Turning to Araavos* Would you like to go to the Hot springs for a little while darling?
I suppose we'll be off then. Have fun you two!~ And be safe. Just make sure Fotia knows you're leaving yea? *She said. Taking Araavos's Hand and leading him out to go to the hot springs*
Soon Twyla leads Nio out to her special Place in Nakuruutu until Dinner. While Fotia works on Writing. And Hua and Araavos Spend time at the Hot Springs.
*As Everything fades away and she Finds herself in his room with him. She smiles Warmly. Caressing his cheek before calmly walking over to the bed and climbing in. Laying down on her side*
*She smiles. And Sits up briefly to pull off her bottoms and her top. Tossing them over the side before laying back down and scooting closer to him. Now facing him. Looking into his eyes*
*Each time his lips meat hers she feels her breath being taken away and her heart Skip a beat. Closing her eyes and Returning it with just as much passion. her hand on his wrist as he caresses her cheek.*
Fair point... I could never do that to them. I'm... so grateful for all of you... *Running a hand along his chest slowly. Until gradually it began to go limp as she drifted off into a peaceful slumber*
*swooping in, and just races to the bathroom. Slowly, painfully, removing glass shards from her hands. The tears running down her face a mix of sadness, anger, embarrassment, and pain*
*as she's removing shards. Talking to herself out loud* "Be more assertive" they said! "Don't let people walk over you" they said! No, I don't want bad things to happen because I spoke my mind. "Just do it!" They said! Okay, so I do. Now I'M the bad guy for what? Refusing to give her a fucking drink after what she did? Fuck that. I'm just going back to being quiet....yeah....(edited)
*healing her wounds on her hands. She usually doesn't show off her magic, but he does know she studies it, so she doesn't care* We're supposed to be a team, Nio.... Why take her side?....
i side wit da truth, and da truth is ya can't be havin it both ways. Ya can't have her try ta be better and at da same time not give her da chance to. She complimented you and was nice, while you attacked and put her down.
*rolls her eyes with a playful smirk* Anyway.... Now I'm conflicted. I'd go back out there, not letting her ruin my spirit, but it just might cause more problems. On the other, Fotia might be a bit disappointed if we're not there. Especially you seeing as you're the father...
